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Thursday, December 29, 2022

State of the Pete-2023

Peter Wung

1234 Hermosa Drive

Troy, OH 45373

(937)339-0310(Home) (314)605-7344 (Cell)

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Equanimity

"Evenness of mind or temper; calmness or firmness, especially under conditions adapted to excite great emotion; a state of resistance to elation, depression, anger, etc."

“I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear.”

Joan Didion

Curiosity

"A desire to know or learn. An object that arouses interest, as by being novel or extraordinary."

無為

Wu-Wei

"inexertion", "inaction", or "effortless action"

Polymathy

"Learning in many fields; encyclopedic knowledge." 

"In this great chain of causes and effects, no single fact can be considered in isolation."

Alexander Von Humboldt

 December 2022

This tradition of the State of the Pete letter started during my gradual school years. I was writing holiday cards as I was waiting for my simulations to run, and it has evolved into these overly long and verbose tomes. My friends have told me they liked it; far be it for me to disappoint them, so I have continued the tradition.  It has grown to be more than just a letter of update; it is a snapshot of my thinking and opinion over the year. This exercise has been the means for me to integrate my disjoint thoughts and summarize the year, as most humans are wont to do at the end of the year. I have tried to steer this away from being a paean to me, as anything written about personal thoughts will de-evolve into; you, my friend, are the ones who need to decide it I am successful in that endeavor.

This letter is anything but an extemporaneous output, which is how I had hoped it would resemble, although this is not quite as difficult as  giving birth to a dissertation. I have much more fun writing this than writing about controlling motors.

My dearest friends,

I hope my annual greeting finds you healthy and joyful. 2022 has been a year for the Wung house. We are still living in Dayton Ohio and my mom still lives with me. She turned 97 this year. It was celebrated in a low key way at home with Chinese takeout as she does not care to venture out of the house, both because of her lack of mobility and because of the threat of COVID, even though she has had all the vaccinations. Her days are spent between taking care of herself and driving me crazy.

The year was passing uneventfully until the Monday before Thanksgiving when mom was not feeling well. We rushed her to the ER where we found out that she was suffering from congestive heart failure. She stayed in the progressive care unit of the Upper Valley Hospital for a week. Her condition had stabilized, through medication, well enough for her to be sent to the same rehab facility where she spent seven months in 2021. The idea was to have her rehab physically so that she can be strong enough to be self-reliant and independent as she was before the CHF.

While there, she tested positive for COVID. Luckily, she had all the vaccines, so she only suffered for a couple of days before she recovered sufficiently. Unfortunately, she was kept in isolation for ten days. While she was in isolation, she was not allowed to be out of her room, so she did all of her physical and occupational therapies in the room. She was released on December 16. She is back home with me now and everything is seemingly back to the way it was before she went in. Her cognitive abilities suffered a bit while she was in the hospital and the rehab home. This was something that I did not realize. She started to hallucinate and was in the throes of various conspiracy theories. The nurses and staff assured me that this was normal, attributable to a combination of old age confusion, COVID brain, and the Sundowner’s syndrome. (https://www.seniorliving.org/health/sundown-syndrome/) It took her a few days, but she is back to her normal faculties today, mas o menos, much to my relief.

This experience, along with all the other experiences I have had with mom’s condition has made me ever more appreciative to the nurses, nurses’ aides, and everyone working in the hospitals and rehab centers. I frankly would not have known how to act and react without their compassion and care.

I am also grateful for my family — the Lin sisters and Dolores Lee — as well as good friends from throughout my life for allowing me to kvetch to them after long days and evenings in the various facilities, as I was physically fatigued and emotionally spent by the time I crawled into bed. You don’t know just how much the phone calls have meant to me and how grateful I am for you. Thank you all so very much.

My Life In General

I am still the manuscript portal administrator for my home technical society, the IEEE Industry Application Society (IEEE IAS). I am also involved in the organizing of two conferences within the society. Work that keeps me surrounded by the latest in the research that in industry, something I have been distanced from for a few years. I still have an interest in the work but I have gained a different perspective as I am further removed from the granular daily work, which afforded me a generalist’s eye view. I am not saying it is superior, but it is a much different perspective, it does keep me thinking, sometimes way too much.

December 31, 2022, will be the end of my four year term as the chair of the IEEE Smart Grid Program. It has been a wild ride, having to go through the COVID era in any leadership role is challenging. While I am not all that keen on every decision I had made in this role, I am not ashamed of the myriad of decisions that we had to make under duress to navigate the treacherous waters. As the coaching saying goes: never be the last coach for any player; I am glad that I am not the last chair of that organization. I leave the organization in a healthy state, having closer alliances with the sponsoring societies.  I am also quite excited about the new chair, Prof. Wei-Jen Lee, he is more than qualified for the job and he is passionate about the mission. Interesting thing about Wei-Jen, he had met my father when he came to Taipei with his doctoral advisor back when my dad was working for the Ministry of Economic Affairs in the Republic of China. It is a very small world.

I missed the annual geek fest, ECCE 2022 in Detroit, the conference that I have been attending every year since its inception. I miss the comradery and opportunities to converse, hang out,  and enjoying adult beverages with my friends. My friend Emmanuel chaired the organizing committee for ECCE 2022, and by all accounts it was an absolute success, much kudos to him.

I am teaching electric power courses at both the University of Dayton and Marquette University. I am not, however, commuting between Dayton and Milwaukee; the Marquette classes are all virtual. I have become somewhat adept at using Zoom and Teams. I don’t think I will ever be the same with Webex.

I teach the same class: Introduction to Electric Energy Systems, that I have taught for the last few years at Dayton in the Fall. I also teach a more advanced version of that class called  Contemporary Power Systems and the Smart Grid at both Marquette and Dayton in the Spring.

The changeup for the past Fall is that I agreed to tackle teaching a Power System Protective Relaying class at Marquette, a class that I last took as a student more than thirty years ago. I managed to find my notes in the chaos that is my basement. Unfortunately, they were not of much help as the state-of-the-art in power system protection has changed significantly in the intervening thirty years. I did manage to cobble a set of class notes together from three books: one a classic power system protection book geared towards practicing engineers, a modern protection book written by a relay manufacturer, and a power protection textbook geared towards students. Much thanks to Prof. Miroslav Begovic for recommending the books. The book for practicing engineers was written by a very good friend of my father’s, J. Lewis Blackburn, Uncle Lewis. In fact, my father took the famous Westinghouse Protective Relaying class with Uncle Lewis nearly 70 years ago. I have thus come full circle to revisit an area that my father had studied while he came to the US as a young man.

It was a chaotic semester, but it was a great learning experience for me, I hope that it was the same for the students. What made it all work was that the students were enthusiastic and were eager to learn, which made all the difference.  It was an exercise in instantaneous turnaround for me, I had to learn the material and then teach it to the students the same week.

I also agreed to teach an introduction to Power Electronics class this coming Spring. This should be interesting, another topic that I have not reviewed in years, but much closer to what I was doing as an engineer.

I had a rather large contingent of non-American students this year, with different cultural norms, habits, and motivation. We all struggled with dealing with each other’s expectations. In the end, a number of students who had difficulties showing up to class dropped the class, while those who did appear in person did well. I need to rethink how I approach the class for next year if the influx of non-American students persists.

Volleyball

My volleyball life has changed. Since I am the primary care giver for my mom, I cannot travel overnight to tournaments. My club had me working with all the teams, depending on which coaches ask for help. I did not miss coaching in tournaments, I did miss hanging out with fellow coaches during the down times and I miss visiting with my coaching friends from around the country. Living and dying as the decision-making prowess of teenagers was not the most pleasant experience.

Since I was able to work with all the teams within the club, I got to know some players that I would not have gotten to know if I had my own team. Indeed, I believe that the group of 18’s that I spent the most time with made me love coaching again. A good number of them are playing in college now, and they were keen on being prepared before getting to college in the Fall. We had voluntary sessions with them, more individualized workouts with about four or five players at a time.  I was able to teach them some advanced tactics that they had not been exposed to prior to this season. I benefited far more from coaching them than they benefited from being coached by me. The 18’s coach told me that they would sneak in some plays that we had worked on in matches because they just wanted to experiment.

Here is my appreciation for our time together and for them. (https://polymathtobe.blogspot.com/2022/02/volleyball-coaching-life-teaching.html)

I also worked with some of the younger players, doing specialized workouts. The rewards came from working with players whose minds were curious. It was also quite satisfying that they were quick studies. This is #WhyICoach.

Needless to say, I did not venture to the frozen tundra that is Omaha 2022 for the AVCA Convention and the NCAA Division I Final Four. It is the same reason that I did not go to Detroit for ECCE 2022, in fact I have not travelled  in the last three years. I miss long nights at the convention with my volleyball friends, I miss the learning, the debating, the sessions, and the arguments.

The Chautauqua

Chautauqua was an adult education and social movement in the United States, highly popular in the late 19th and early 20th centuries. Chautauqua assemblies expanded and spread throughout rural America until the mid-1920s. The Chautauqua brought entertainment and culture for the whole community, with speakers, teachers, musicians, showmen, preachers, and specialists of the day.

Since I spend most of my time at home or teaching, I read and try to fulfill my self-proclaimed mission of becoming a Curious Polymath. It started life as a sardonic poke at myself, a haughty name for what I do: ask questions, learn so that I can answer the questions, organize what I learned to facilitate retention, and leverage that knowledge to become witty, erudite, and be THE colorful conversationalist at parties, which I of course, never ever attend. I doubt I will ever be known as a colorful wit, I will more likely be known as the monochromatic twit.

In my quest for Curious Polymathy, I  chose to train my attention on many different subjects. All at once is my modus operandi,  why focus on one thing at a time when you can try to do many in parallel. Hence the disjointed choices in reading material in heavy bag of books I always seem to carry with me.

I have also concluded that my temperament is more suited to be a generalist rather than a specialist as I get restless when I am too focused on one topic. I still enjoy digging into the granularity of topics of interest, but I need to spread my attention around so that I can think about everything unencumbered by tunnel vision.

My attention has been focused on cognitive neurosciences recently, it is  completely outside of my comfort zone. The path I took is a circuitous one. It started as I was trying to fill in the large gap in my knowledge of statistics. In reading broadly about statistics, specifically inferential statistics, drawing inference, and learning about how people make decisions has been a theme in my curiosity meanderings for the last few years. The path now sits on  the topic of  Causal Inference. I had started and dropped reading Judea Pearl’s The Book of Why? (Pearl 2018) many times over the last few years. I finally managed to buckle down and dug into it with intent. It is difficult because it is a hybrid concept, depending on statistical ideas and a large dose of intuition. Pearl pioneered the area, developing the mathematics of causality to create a structure in the uncertain human decision-making process. My initial foray into causal inference stems from my experience with the misapplication of statistical tools; I like the idea of  augmenting statistical calculations with causal mathematics. It just seems so much more organic.

I am still at the initial slope of the learning curve, far from a clear high-altitude  view of the subject. It has been challenging, and the learning curve is stiff.

My interests in causal inference and cognitive neurosciences led me to a nascent interest in artificial intelligence. I learned of Gary Marcus’ arguments for Artificial General Intelligence (AGI) as opposed to the AI community’s reliance on Deep Learning through reading his Substack site. By the way, Substack is a valuable resource. I was exposed to it from my subscription to Heather Cox Richardson’s daily Letters From an American column.  

Gary Marcus articles speaks with expertise about the burgeoning application of artificial intelligent, more specifically, his focus on AGI; he posits that it is the key to creating AI that is capable of reasoning and make better decisions without the advantage of complete information. Most of the AI that is commercially applied uses Deep Learning which is based on using the scorched earth training through crazily large data sets. Marcu’s book, Rebooting AI, takes on that argument (Gary Marcus 2006).

The reason I bring this up — as I am only halfway through Marcus’ book —  is that there has been a lot of attention developing about ChatGPT, an AI chatbot which can hold seemingly rational conversations and churn out articles which is sophisticated enough to fool people into thinking that the articles are written by human subject matter experts. ChatGPT is an OpenAI project. OpenAI is partly owned by Elon Musk, which is why the chatbot had garnered so much notoriety. They announced the launch of the chatbot with great fanfare, their claim is that this tool’s development solves the human intelligence problem. The founder of OpenAI has since walked back much of his hyperbole just months after the launch, after the open-source testing of the chatbot by the general public has churned out both brilliant articles and pure garbage. Gary Marcus examines the tool in this article (https://garymarcus.substack.com/p/ais-jurassic-park-moment ). Academia had seemingly lost their sh** about this because many professors were afraid that students had found a way to bypass the essay question, through using AI.

Non-Fiction Books

As I was reading through a list of books that Gary Marcus has authored, one stood out. He had taken a year out of his life to learn to play the guitar, approaching the learning process as a cognitive psychologist, as he is familiar with the latest in the best learning practices. He made himself his own guinea pig and experimented.  Guitar Zero (Marcus 2012) is the result. I highly recommend it. I read it as supplementary material for my teaching and coaching, but I ended up reading it like an adventure story. Really good and fun read. Marcus also had the opportunity to meet some very famous musicians in his one-year sojourn through music, and he namedrops a bit.

I had read about The Puzzler (Jacobs 2022) while perusing the book reviews on various sites. AJ Jacobs has a unique temperament; he puts himself into the thick of experiencing the subjects that he is writing about so that he can write from a first person view point. This book investigates the world of puzzles, all kinds of puzzles, from Rubik’s cube to Crosswords, from Sudokus to rebuses, to anagrams, etc. I suspect that my friends who are jigsaw puzzlers might be surprised to find out that there is a World Championship of jigsaw puzzle solving. Jacobs and his family represented the US in Spain for that World Championship. He was able to do so because no one else in the US knew about it and all you had to do was write a check and enter. Thus inspired by the reading, I started to do more puzzles myself. I had played with the mini crosswords on the New York Times app as a pre-bed diversion, I had not done the actual NYT crosswords in a long time but found myself doing so and having some successes for at most, the Monday and Tuesday puzzles, they are the easiest. I have solved a few Wednesday crosswords, but not all of them, because Wednesday seems to be my limit. The difficulty for the crossword puzzles increases as the week goes by, with the Saturday NYT crossword being the most difficult.

One puzzle that he did get me hooked on is the NYT Spelling Bee puzzle. Jacobs said this was one of the most addicting puzzles, and sure enough, I am addicted. I do it every day without fail. I just achieved Queen Bee status recently: I was able to get all the words that were possible given the seven-letters given in the puzzle. I am kind of jazzed about that, as you see.

Fiction Books

I have generally strayed away from fiction the last few years except for murder mysteries. A well crafted whodunnit serves to take my mind off the mental challenges presented by my non-fiction readings. I am a creature of habit in that regard as I am only reading the books by Louise Penny, Peter Robinson, Andrea Camillieri, Ian Rankin,  and Martin Walker, even though I have a bunch of fiction books on my TBR stack waiting for my muse to turn to other fiction.

One of the authors I listed, Peter Robinson, a British ex-pat who had lived in Canada for years passed away this year. Unfortunately, there will not be any new Inspector Alan Banks mysteries. The series was set in Yorkshire, a place that I had spent some time visiting when I was working for Emerson, so I have a soft spot for the story, the Yorkshire locale, and the characters. Fortunately, the dialog was not written with a Yorkshire accent. RIP.

I tried to introduce some variation in my fiction reading by deviating from my list of favored  mystery writers this year by reading a couple of other authors, and I was sorely disappointed. None of their narrative, plotting, character development, and writing were up to the standards of the authors I read regularly. I am now resigned to just reading the same writers as they publish new books. I have paused the new author’s experiment, at least for a while.

I did throw another changeup in my reading when I read a novel written by my friend Karla Huebner. It was not a mystery; in fact it was very far from being a murder mystery. The title of the book is: In Search of the Magical Theater. Here is my review (https://polymathtobe.blogspot.com/2022/06/book-review-in-search-of-magic-theater.html) It was a good break for me, it challenged me and pulled me out of my reading rut, and I learned about the world of theater. I rather enjoyed characters that did not have deep inner secrets that involved malice. They did have other inner secrets however.

Reading Pontification (Soapbox Topic)

When did reading become a competitive game? I had always ignored the challenges advertised by the likes of websites and groups like Goodreads. It seems, however, that I am in the minority. In some of the book groups that I subscribe to, reading has become a blood sport, the gauntlet being thrown down by the book groups: read as many books as possible within a given time. People are encouraged to read more books so that Goodreads can sell more books for Amazon. Some people are reading 100 books a year. How the F can you remember 100 books? That’s eight and a third of a book a month, nearly two books a week, one third of a book a day. What kind of books are they reading? Are they counting comic books? War and Peace, Don Quixote, Infinite Jest, and Robert Caro’s series on the LBJ presidency are definitely not on their list. The efficacious would devise a strategy of reading only short books. This is not to say that short books are devoid of merit, but how boring. A  more germane question is: why even bother reading these books if they are not going to meaningful, memorable, or enjoyable. The key is memorable, because I cannot fathom how one can remember the gist of 100 books, especially when they are read in such a heated rush.

At this time of the year, people are desperate to meet their pledged goal, so they are begging for short, easy books to read so that they can reach their goals. I doubt that the last-minute readings are in any way entertaining  because they are reading with the sword of Damocles hanging over them, that is just too much pressure. We go through our working life chasing deadlines and giving ourselves coronaries because of the arbitrary timelines our society imposes on us. The logical question is: why are people following the same unsustainable pace in their leisure life? Have we de-evolved so much in our habits to mindlessly mirror our corporate dictated lifestyle and rhythm?  Are we this stupid?

The Tao

One of the threads that followed me into 2022 was the continued sampling of the book The Importance of Living by Lin Yutang (Lin 1937). Lin was, as I remembered him, THE public intellectual in Taiwan when I was growing up. His books in Chinese were continually on the best seller list, partly because the KMT approved of his writing, more importantly, they approved of his loyalty to the Republic of China. This is part of the reason that I had not considered reading his books: because I thought his popularity was due only to his political loyalties. I discovered The Importance of Living  via a long and serendipitous path; as it turns out, I really enjoyed his book. Much of what he had to say aligned with the way my thinking on living life has evolved. It is a very Chinese viewpoint, so  I was surprised that I was so agreeable with his thinking, I guess I retained more of my Chinese self than I realized.

I read small sections of the book every day; that is,  I didn't read it as a book, but as a daily exercise in philosophy. His reference to Laotse and Chuang Tse rekindled my long-time interest in Taoism and my cultural roots. His easygoing style and simple way of looking at playing, reading, writing, loafing, thinking, being human, and living reinvigorated my mind.  Thus influenced, I bought a used copy of his out-of-print treatise on the Tao Te Ching, deciding to delve into the meaning of the short tome for my own education.

#WhenPeteGetsAmbitious Indeed, I could not keep it simple, I am not Occam, I am approaching the reading in typical overcomplicated Pete style, dipping into the Tao Te Ching through comparing three translations of the book — a translation by Ursula Le Guin, (Guin 1997), a compendium of the four books of Chinese wisdom as translated by David Hinton (Hinton 2013), and Lin’s book (Yutang 1948) — so that I can explore the nuances with the different translation. Lin’s is the only translation that offers analysis and explanations. I am taking my time with the relatively short texts.

Music

Music is the center of any generation; as with all the other generations, mine feel like music is more important to us than any of the other generations, we are entitled in that way.  We know that music sets the rhythm for the narrative of living, it provides the cadence to our lives as we live it. So it is that I have become uncomfortably aware of the ages of those musicians that had provided our soundtrack, it is a reminder that I am also getting older.

Bob Dylan is 81. Mick Jagger is 79, Paul McCartney is 80. Keith Richards is supposed to be 79 and Willie Nelson is supposed to be 89; but age is immaterial for those two, they will outlive everyone.

A number of my favorite musicians have announced that they had or are about to embark on their last tours. Peter Frampton had to quit touring because it became too painful for him to continue to play guitar night after night.

Genesis embarked on their very last tour in 2022. Mike Rutherford and Tony Banks are both 72, while the relative youngster Phil Collins is only 71, but bad drumming posture throughout his career has led to the  bad back that has crippled him; that, and his numerous remarriages to the same ex-wife. He spent the entire tour singing from a chair and he left the drumming to his son, which made for some sentimental shots of Phil watching proudly as his son pounded out the rhythms that he originated. I missed the tour, I wish I could have seen this last farewell tour, but the logistics and the price were showstoppers. I have, however, broken out my newest edition of Seconds Out, the best live album ever recorded. It is my fifth copy. My first edition of Seconds Out was also the very first vinyl album I have ever bought. I played it on my Woolco-bought Panasonic turntable in the basement of 6169 South Steele Street in Littleton, and that dulcet tone has stayed with me all of my life.

Christine McVie wrote the soundtrack of my high school and college life, or a large part of it. Unfortunately, I had always thought of her as the woman in Fleetwood Mac who is NOT Stevie Nicks, a very unfair and ignorant attitude; but that is the way many testosterone addled teenage boys saw the situation. After her passing at 79, SiriusXM presented a two-day Fleetwood Mac Radio Channel, a recycling of the special program they had presented before. This was where I learned to appreciate her exceptional song writing talent and the amazing songs that she had written. I am finding time to revisit classic Fleetwood Mac tunes.

On a more positive note, when I first saw footage of  Joni Mitchell, at 79, sitting on a throne and singing along with the younger artists on a stage, I melted. Brandi Carlile had convinced the Newport Jazz Fest organizers to allow her to organize a Joni Mitchell program during the festival. She also convinced many luminous younger musicians to pay tribute to Joni at Newport. It was a fitting tribute, given how Joni’s music and adventurous forays into numerous different genres of music inspired and paved the way for many that came after her. They owed her for their inspiration. It seems every single musician I respect is a Joni Mitchell fan. I came to understand her music much later in my life, I heard music in a cursory manner her when I was younger, but I listened to her music deeply as I got older. The YouTube videos of the Newport performances were sensational, it seemed like Joni herself was revitalized by the show. I am so glad people were able to show their appreciation for her.

Bruce Springsteen, a spry youngster at 73, put out a sublime album of Motown covers, Only the Strong Survive. He said, in numerous interviews, that he felt he wanted a chance to sing other people’s songs because he had spent his career writing songs for himself to sing, it was time to sing other people’s songs. His voice has mellowed and his singing chops have evolved enough over the years to do justice to the Motown material. The album is exceptional. Some would accuse him of doing what white musicians have always done to black musicians: stealing the music and making money off of their talents. But. This is Springsteen. His body of work speaks for itself, he didn’t have to cover the songs, he wanted to cover the songs because he is a fan. Discussion over.

The song that knocked me for a loop is Nightshift, the cover of the Commodores 1985 tune. It is the Commodores tribute to Marvin Gaye and Jackie Wilson. Bruce’s version is a recursion of sorts: a tribute to the Commodores paying tribute to Marvin and Jackie. I looked up the originals 1985 video, with the band primping their jheri curls and dressed in the outlandish stage costumes from that era. It brought me back to that time and space. For better or for worse.

Sports

It was a wonderous Summer, as the Cardinals went on the Pujols and Molina farewell tour, with Wainright thrown in as a bonus since he didn’t actually retire; it didn’t hurt the sentimentality of the event that the Cardinals won a lot. Those three had given the St. Louis fans incredible memories while  playing for the Cardinals, this grand tour season was a fitting end. There were many highpoints: Albert getting 703 homeruns, Wainright and Molina breaking the record for the most starts as battery mates with 325, Cardinals winning the NL Central in a tight race; yet the ending was not perfect, as the non-fairy tale season ended with the Cardinals losing in the playoffs. But what a Summer it was.

I was one of the many who vowed to never forgive Pujols eleven years ago for chasing the money with the Angels, and I was gleeful as the Cardinals made the playoffs the following season while the Angels did not. Time heals all wounds as they say, I was excited when the Cardinals signed him for the farewell season. The city of St. Louis was as classy as ever, unlike me, and welcomed him home with open arms. All three should be HOF inductees, despite what some Cub fans believe.

My alma maters had mixed results on the field and the courts. The Illini is playing in what is known as the ReliaQuest Bowl, ugh. In Tampa. Looking better! On January 2, 2023. OK, not a New Year’s Day Bowl, but close enough. Against Mississippi State. Oooh an SEC opponent! Whose coach, Mike Leach, is being remembered because he had died while undergoing a heart procedure. Uh-oh. These circumstances remind me of 1982 when Mike White’s Illinois team played Bear Bryant’s Alabama team in the Liberty Bowl. It was a no-win situation for Illinois as Bryant had announced that he was retiring after the bowl game. Good thing Tony Eason got hurt, and White needed to keep Jack Trudeau redshirted, so they played Kris Jenner, who went 0-3 with three interceptions to ensure the Alabama win. Bryant died four weeks later.

Illini basketball had an exciting season, winning the Big Ten (yay!) but then proceeded to be ignominiously knocked out of the tournament in the second round (boo!). Very disappointing. Boys are not playing well this season either.

The less said about the Georgia Tech’s football or basketball seasons the better. The best thing about the football team is that players didn’t quit on the interim football coach, they kept playing even though they were out matched, thereby getting the alum a chance at the big chair. The future looks bright, though we will see.

The Illini volleyball squad did not make the NCAAs this year. They were somewhat in the conversation, until they folded down the stretch.

Georgia Tech, however, made the world of collegiate volleyball sit up and take notice of the North Avenue Trade School. They made the NCAAs, were ranked 16th in the season ending coaches’ poll, and had one of the most exciting players in the world. Julia Bergmann was amazing to watch, a fiery 6’5” redhead. You can hear the difference in the pop of the ball when she gets her kills. She will be playing for the Brasilian national team after this season, I am quite looking forward to her international career.

ESPN, to their credit,  actually carried all the matches, albeit on ESPN+ for the first two rounds, and the finals were broadcast on ESPN2 rather than the flagship station. I still watched all the volleyball that I wanted. This was the first time that half of the final four coaches are women, exciting but also elicits a disappointing question: why did it take so long?

Some of my coaching friends are getting their chance at sitting in the big chair. Indeed, they did much better than the prognosticators in the various volleyball groups had prognosticated, at the same time other friends are leaving the game. The ebb and flow of the volleyball landscape. Time waits for no one.

Miscellaneous

Knowing what I know about the history of Tesla — the company was started by Martin Eberhardt, a fellow Illini, and not Elon Musk — I am less than impressed with Musk and his lack of personnel management  acumen. Combine that with what I have learned about his dangerous promises about Tesla’s AI based autonomous vehicle algorithm, I am strongly on the side of the Twitter employees.

Even though Twitter had been described as a cesspool of miscreants and trolls, I find Twitter to be a great mode of communication with people that I don’t usually communicate with. I can directly access people who are very good at what they do: physicists, philosophers, mathematicians, athletes, media personalities,  coaches, energy and electrical power engineers, and many others from my two Twitter accounts. The opportunity for serendipitous discussions while directly learning about the latest and greatest things that they from them do is invaluable. I am still there despite all of Elon Musks gyrations to destroy his $44 billion investment. I don’t know how or if it will survive. I have tried to get on Mastodon but I have had problems because of the mass exodus from Twitter. I have been told that the experience is not as freewheeling as Twitter, so I am not in a hurry to move. We just can’t have nice things.

Sports betting will be legal in Ohio starting in the new year. I remember when I moved to St. Louis, all the gaming companies were opening casinos in Missouri. The arguments then, as with  the arguments now touted the influx of profits, the entertainment value of gambling for the masses, etc. I also remember how ill prepared the state governments were for the sudden opening of the betting gates. There were stories of people gambling away their mortgage and committing suicides because of it. All the casino companies did was slap up a bunch of billboards around their luxurious casino boats touting the programs that they were obligated to pay for to treat addiction problems as part of the deal for operating the casinos. We know about Americans and their proclivity for addictions, the billboards did not do much. Understand that I am not against gambling. I am, however, an engineer who understands the statistics, so I find it foolhardy to bet when the house has so much of an advantage, plus I am a cheap bastard.

Not being in the traditional labor market presently, I find the conversation about work environment and the corporate decisions on whether to return to the office or to allow employees to stay home revealing. I see the people who are the most adamant, Jamie Diamond, Elon Musk again, and the other juveniles in corporate America laughable in their naivete. Some have even implemented surveillance software and privacy intrusion policies that are essentially legal stalking their employees. I was  gleeful  that they have all had to back off of their threats because today’s labor force doesn’t play that way, as more people walked away than capitulate to their blackmail. Which brings up the interesting question of: what ARE these people who are walking away doing for work if they are not capitulating? We are under the impression that our society is leverage to the hilt, people owe large amounts of debt. We see reports of increasing homelessness, and yet the labor statistics are not as dire as what I had believed. One explanation is that people are moving away from work that they are used to in order to make their lives better, better in more manners than just the take home salary, something that corporate America just does not understand. The service industry is getting hit hard because people are refusing to be treated like chattel and they are moving on to other industries, but what other industries? The numbers are conflicting. If you laid all the economists head to toe, they will still not come to a conclusion.

Currency has always been ephemeral; it all depends on the trust that people place on the verity of the agreed upon value. Usually this means central banks and government-backed currencies. Yet, people are shocked. Shocked I tell you, when FTX, the third largest crypto exchange collapsed. The cybercurrency market has also collapsed from its highest points. WTF were people expecting? It was all a house of cards predicated on the ill placed faith in the non-regulated ledgers. Somewhere along the line people realized that the emperor had no clothes, that it was all vaporware. The first sign of trouble is when you realize that you had to exchange real, backed currency to buy crypto unbacked currency.

My other problem with crypto is that by virtue of the currency mining operations that is the backbone of crypto exchanges, the amount of electrical energy expended to perform these operations is immense. The total is staggering, in the order of the yearly total electrical energy consumption of several sovereign nations. Energy that is unnecessarily expended, energy that can be used to offset our greenhouse gas production. The tone-deaf crypto industry insists that they are converting their operations over to  sustainable energy sources, so their carbon footprint can be minimized. A more logical explanation would be if they ceased operations and devote those sustainable energy sources to maintaining our normal energy usage. Just a thought. Surprisingly, the electrical utilities are using Blockchains to conduct their business transactions because of its speed and convenience. SMDH.

When Volodymir Zelensky was elected president of the Ukraine, he was caricatured as the clown that became president because he was a comedian. He is now the most admired man in the world for what he did not do, run away to save himself and his family; and for what he did do, inspired his countrymen to stop big bad Russia’s imperialist fantasies in their tracks and rubbing Vladmir’s nose in his own excrement. The undeclared war is not over, but anyone following the news well knows that Putin is losing ground, internally and internationally. The western world, especially the US,  owe a debt of gratitude to the Ukrainians for showing us how precious democracy is; so precious that it is worth sacrificing all that you have. I keep hoping that the white supremacist Trumpites will learn this lesson, but I am not optimistic, since too many of them were involved in the traitorous January 6 insurrection.

On that note, you have now reached the fork in the road. The point of departure. I thank you for indulging in my attempt at storytelling, but the narrative is turning as you read, and as I write.

You must choose between the blue pill or the red pill, much as Neo had to do the same in The Matrix.

Red pills, continue reading my partisan, progressive, leftist, liberal diatribe.

Blue pill, stop right now. You are avoiding my partisan, progressive, leftist, liberal diatribe.

Regardless, My best wishes to you in the new year, for good health, good fortune, good friends, good reads, good food, and good libations.

Pete

References

Gary Marcus, Ernest Davis. Rebooting AI Building Artificial Intelligence We Can Trust. New York City: Pantheon Books, 2006.

Guin, Ursula K. Le. Lao Tsu Tao Te Ching. Boulder: Shambala Publications, 1997.

Hinton, David. The Four Chinese Classics. Berkeley: Counterpoint Press, 2013.

Jacobs, A. J. The Puzzler. New York City: Crown Publishing, 2022.

Lin, Yutang. The Importance of Living. New York: William Morrow and Company, 1937.

Marcus, Gary. Guitar Zero: The New Musician and the Science of Learning. New York City: The Penguin Press, 2012.

Pearl, Judea. The Book of Why: The New Science of Cause and Effect. New York City: Basic Books, 2018.

Yutang, Lin. The Wisdom of Laotse. New York City: Random House, 1948.

The Red Pill

“When stupidity is considered to be patriotism, it is unsafe to be intelligent.”

Isaac Asimov

The quote encapsulates the modern conservatives, and not just American ones. More telling than the intelligence of the modern conservative, it is the integrity, honesty, empathy, compassion, and humanity, or lack thereof of the modern conservative which defines their place in the pantheon of bottom feeding hall of fame. DeSantis and Abbott thinking that it is funny to send desperate immigrants as political showpieces to New York, Washington, and to the Vice President’s house. Abbott and his award-winning performance as the NRA mannequin and mouthpiece during the Uvalde  massacre. Jim Jordan, who can not manage to pass a piece of legislation, demanding to be the disrupter in chief during the January 6 hearings. Matt Goetz, Harvey Feinstein of congress. Spineless Kevin McCarthy, groveling before the orange moron to seek forgiveness after making daddy mad.

The epitome of conservative amorality and dispassion was on full display when Nancy Pelosi’s husband was attacked by a white supremacist coward. Hammering an 87-year-old man repeated, that took true courage (sarcasm noted.)  

Despite my vehemence, it isn’t the conservatism that reviles, it is the absence of any positive human behavior of the so-called conservatives around the world. They speak with their actions and non-actions. Many have abandoned any pretense of possessing empathy, compassion, kindness, reason, logic, or love of their fellow humans. Their greed and hatred have taken over their black hearts and of coure their words and actions. For this we have the orange moron and his ilk to thank. In this world where we preach and value compassion and kindness, the far right make it all very obvious that they have stopped caring to even pretend. The irony is that the greatest cheerleaders of the far right are the fundamentalist religious, all because of one issue. They got their wish in Dobbs. If the post Dobbs actions by the progressives are any indication, these f***** are in for a fight.

To refer to today’s American conservative party as Republicans is a slap in the face of the party of Lincoln. These pretenders to and usurpers of the mantel of conservatism  are better identified as white supremacist Trumpites, because the GOP party machinery has de-evolved to the point that formerly traditional Republicans have discovered, much to their chagrin,  that they are not welcomed at the inn. Liz Cheney and Adam Kinzinger are leaving congress. The formerly mainstream conservatives have abandoned ship because the “party” decided to cast its lot with the white supremacist Trumpites.

The red wave that was supposed to be the tipping point for all that is evil turned out to be a red trickle, or a red spritz, a premature spritz that is emblematic of Mister tiny orange hands.

It is an interesting conundrum, on the one hand, the endorsement from the Orange moron proved to be deadly, which restores my faith, somewhat, in the American electorate.  On the other hand, the Orange moron’s slate of candidates were such a pack of dismal, unqualified, amoral, incompetent knuckle draggers that one wonders if someone had found them while looking under every slimy rock in the universe. The fact that those races were so close made me want to reconsider what I had said about the American electorate. The Fetterman and Oz race was close because people were wondering about Fetterman’s health, I get that. But the choice between Warnock and Herschel Walker? Seriously? Even Walker’s son disowned him. Why was this even close? Kari Lakes and Katie Hobbs? Another no brainer, but it was close. Why?!!

The surprising red premature ejaculation has the political pundits scratching their heads. The common wisdom, which may not be so common, is that the midterms are usually disastrous for the president’s party; the addition of  the inflation and economics news should have doomed the chances of the party in power. The electorate ignored common wisdom and prevailed over evil, although not completely. The Dems retained the Senate, even though the betrayal of Sinema dampened the good news; and lost the house because of the gerrymandering. The shame is that the Dems are limited in what they can do with the findings of the January 6 committee.

The January 6 hearings had plenty of former Republicans testifying against the orange moron. Their testimony was powerful and it took courage to go against the white supremacist Trumpites. The real question is: why did they wait so long? Why didn’t they stop him? By all accounts there are officials within the White House who tried mightily to rein in the moron.

The midterms in Ohio were a dismal. Ohio is theoretically a purple state, albeit a reddish purple. The problem is that the white supremacists Trumpites  have been unchallenged for so long that they feel they can run any idiot and win, witness J.D, Vance. The Democrats knew they have no chance, so they gave up too and they ran Tim Ryan, who might as well be a Trump Republican. The political ads from those two mouth breathers drove me to distraction, the strategy was to throw everything against the wall to see what sticks, the gloppier and smellier the ads are, the more they showed it. Vance, an immoral, lying, sack of vermin excrement who is in the pockets of Big Pharma won, to no one’s surprise. 

The governor’s race was between Mike Dewine, the milquetoast carpetbagging former Democrat who switched parties going against Nan Whaley, the former Dayton mayor, who should have been indicted for corruption but wasn’t, probably because her corruption does not add up to a hill of bean’s worth of difference as compared to the white supremacist Trumpites. Dewine’s son ran for Ohio supreme court and won; my jurist friend is apoplectic because Pat Dewine is not supreme court material, he is barely human material.

The influence  of Alex Jones and Infowars got smacked to the tune of  $1.5 billion dollars. That sounds so good, even though it won’t give those parents their babies back. Too bad Jones only owes money. I was hoping he would become well practiced in reaching for his ankles when ordered.

The is the best video ever. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMB7QMIUkhA) Turtle boy and McCarthy getting snubbed by the Capital Hill police being honored for their bravery during the attempted coup.

I would go on, the material is there, but my blood pressure is too high and I don’t have the energy to continue. Once again, I thank you for reading as I bid you adieu.


Thursday, November 24, 2022

Ruminations-Thanksgiving 2022

Last year I had talked a little bit about Thanksgiving in my blog post, it is my favorite American holiday. https://polymathtobe.blogspot.com/2021/11/ruminations-memorable-thanksgiving.html

This year I will delve a little bit more into why I have such a love of the Thanksgiving celebration.

When I first moved to the United States. We lived in Littleton, Co. My mom had no idea on what to do about the turkey, never having seen a turkey, nor ever having cooked the turkey before coming to the United States. We were invited over to our friends’ house and had the whole feast with their family, their in laws, and their friends; it was my first real taste of American roasted turkey. I can't say that I had a very deep memory of the turkey itself, although I enjoyed the dressing, the mashed potatoes, all of the fixings, and, of course, the pumpkin pie.

Years later, we decided that we would get together with some of the other expatriate Chinese people in Littleton since they were our family in Colorado. Everybody was assigned a dish and my mom volunteered to cook the turkey herself. After much teeth gnashing, she reached out to the mother-in-law of the family which hosted us on our first Thanksgiving  to learn the art of cooking a delicious moist bird. The mother-in-law marched mom through the paces, taught her how to truss up the turkey, taught her the tricks of her experience, like putting bacon on the turkey’s joints so that the skin doesn't crack and get dried up. I don’t know if the bacon did the trick, but it was delicious. If I remember correctly, it was a very popular bird.

Of course, being a gathering of Chinese ex-pats, everybody brought the traditional Chinese holiday dishes to augment the turkey itself. The dining table was groaning under the weight of dumplings, roast duck —the  backup turkey— fried rice, fishes, and all sorts of non-Thanksgiving feasting foods.

This is where I think my vision of Thanksgiving came from, even though we've had other large parties and celebrations with lots of people, this was the official picture that I had of what  large celebrations with others feel like.  Thanksgiving made an indelible impression on my mind, a very American ideal of fellowship, of friendship, of sharing meals with  people that you choose to spend time with rather than having to spend time with. This idea appealed to me deeply, even to this day.

As I got older, the nature of my parents’ traditional Thanksgiving party evolved. The nature of the people who came changed. The guests became  children  of my parents friends who were faced with the prospect of spending the scant holidays alone in a cold dorm because it was too far and too expensive to take a trip home, as well as friends who were alone for that time.

I'd like to think that our family introduced them to the American tradition of Thanksgiving. At least I hope so. It was always a big deal for my parents. It was always a time of conviviality and friendship; it was always a time of togetherness and warmth with people. That is what drew me to this particular holiday the most.

Christmas just wasn't as big of a deal in my mind, mainly because it felt like the gratitude and thankfulness so much of an afterthought. The focus is on the Christian rituals for the birth of Christ rather than celebrating the very human love of being with other humans. Thanksgiving is a celebration of people, of us, of friends, of people that we felt liked us, people that we have something in common with. It is a celebration of friendship and amity. I'm not sure how it got to be so important in my mind, but it has.

I have much to be thankful for this year. I am enjoying what I do very much, I have had many chances to indulge in my polymathic curiosity, as scattered as they are. I have had chances to interact with some very intelligent young people, to teach, to lead, and to mentor at two universities.

I am most especially thankful that I still have my mom with me, and she is healthy despite her 97 years of living.

This time of year though, given the cold weather, the early darkness, and the waning of growth, seems more poignant,  it also brings forth my own gratitude to life, to people, and to the humanity that surrounds us, because that is what we need to focus on. At this point of time of divisiveness, I feel extremely thankful and lucky.

I am especially thankful for all the people who are in my life because it is those of you who are reading this that  I am the most thankful for.

Happy Thanksgiving to all.

 


Thursday, November 17, 2022

Volleyball Coaching Life-Santiago Ball

Volleyball people have been trying to doodle with the traditional scoring for ages now. The volleyball playing rules today are far from Dr. William G. Morgan’s mintonette game.

We have evolved from nine players on the court to six players on the court. We have incorporated a service rotation. We have gone from sideout scoring to rally scoring. The changes have evolved over the years, many of the recent changes in the rule have been motivated by people wanting to make the game of volleyball attractive to television broadcasters, obviously to get our beloved game shown on television.

The legendary Dr. Jim Coleman had experimented with applying tennis rules to volleyball, having the teams play best two out of three sets but each set is scored like tennis: the winner has to win at least six games of 15 points with a margin of two games in each set. I saw it when the USPV was barnstorming through St. Louis during their inaugural season. I don’t remember much about the match, but it all felt kind of weird to watch because of the novelty.

I was talking to my friend Santiago Restrepo about alternative scoring for volleyball earlier this week, he said he has his solution to getting more television exposure. It seemed kind of interesting, so I will present this version of Santiago-ball for consideration. See if his confidence in his rules is justified.

·       Play best 4 out of 7 sets.

·       Each set is rally score to 15.

o   The intent here is to play the last 15 points in a 25 point set and do away with the first 10 points because nothing is on the line for the first 10 points anyways.

o   This works out to playing 2 to 3.5 sets in the regular scoring.

·       Each team plays their best rotation every set. They can play setter front row if they want, very unlikely, or they can play setter back row. Players don’t rotate, front middle stays front middle all the time, setter sets from wherever they want for every point. No overlap rule. No out of rotation calls. This is like the Chinese 9-man rules.

o   Keeps the stoppage to a minimum and keeps the best players at that position playing at that position the entire match.

·       No substitution restrictions, you can sub entire platoons every point if you want. I remember watching Lindenwood under Ron Young play against Stew McDole’s Graceland team, Stew was trying to stop the bleeding and subbed six at every stoppage, I believe that NAIA had no substitution restriction. In that case the subs  still had to be recorded in the scoresheet, which slowed the game down; whereas in Santiago ball the players just run in and out of their positions in the rotation, so that there are no added stoppage for subs.

o   The intent is to put your best attackers and defenders on the court all the time against the best attackers and defenders from the other team. The players can just: “Go at it hard.” They are also playing that one position the entire match, which should keep them in the flow.

o   If your #1 middle stinks it up, just sub her. If your leftside hammer’s shoulder is hanging on by a thread, sub her. If anyone in the back row is shanking balls, sub them.

·       There is one designated server. They serve every serve. It could be anyone playing the backrow, but if that position gets subbed out, it is still the player playing that position that serves.

·       Each team gets two timeouts each set, for 30 seconds. Minimizes stoppage time.

·       That’s it. All the other rules are the same.

Some downside is that the teams are much smaller because not much playing time to be had. Which makes it unpopular in college, club, and high schools. But we are living in Santiago world, so no one cares.

Now. I am awaiting with great antici-pation for counter arguments, counter proposals, and  alternatives.

What says you?

On Books-Slowness

I have never been a fast reader. Even as a child I took my time reading unless I  was reading a rip-roaring yarn, a great story, which made me want desperately to get to the ending so that I could satisfy my greed for the denouement.

As I grew older, I still took my time reading, depending on the subject. If it was a literary work, I would take my time to savor the writing, to learn how to make that feeling that I get when reading great writing appear in my own writing. If I am reading technical books or other non-fiction books for a class or for work, I read carefully, pour over repeatedly, and copious amounts of notes are taken to be read in my own sweet time. I read to make sure I get all the substance of what the author is communicating.

But, if I am under time pressure to complete my reading, I will speed up or skim rapidly as if I had the sword of Damocles hanging over me. That kind of reading is less than satisfying as I am consciously trying too hard to be efficient, which perversely makes me less efficient. My comprehension rate during that time is the functional inverse of my reading speed, so I end up reading the same papers and books repeatedly to gain the same kind of comprehension that I would have gained if I read slowly through the first time.

The last kind of reading is the recreational kind, where I am devouring mysteries, popular fiction, and other entertaining genres. I will admit that I don’t do too much of that anymore. I don’t know why, but they stopped being interesting to me, except for certain authors and series. Considering that this is reading for leisure, I tend to read slowly as well, except when I reach a point in the story where I start to project the eventual ending and I revert to my childhood habit of rushing through the book in search of the denouement.

I rarely go back and re-read the recreational reading books, but I recently have returned to some of what I consider to be exceedingly well written mysteries series because I lacked new reading material. The experience has been mixed. For some, rushing through the book quickly was a good strategy as I have found that the plotting or the writing left much to be desired, something that I ignored or didn’t notice the first time through. Yet for other authors and book series, I realized that I missed all the details and Easter eggs the authors had left for the readers to find. I skipped right over them the first time. A reminder from the reading gods to read slowly and pleasurably.

My preference for slow reading also influences my book collecting habits. Although I love libraries as an institution, and I am a proponent of using the library as often as possible; I prefer buying my reading material from indie and used books stores online. The reason is that I cannot stand being on a two weeklong reading treadmill, trying to finish reading a book before it is due back to the library, it is not satisfying reading. I realize I can extend the borrowing period, but there is also the fear that the library would not extend the borrowing period if the book were a popular commodity.  

So it is that when I joined Goodreads I was surprised when I discovered  all the Goodreads reading contests which promote and encourage people to read as many books as possible in a selected time period, usually a year. I understand their motivation rationally: Goodreads is owned by Amazon and Amazon wants to sell books; I get it. My surprise is that there are so many who have taken on these challenges willingly. I could see where that challenge could be attractive to many people. I'm just not one of them. I had not realized that reading has attain the status of a competitive sport.

Even though my friends know me as an avid reader, I don't go through as many books as my friends think I do.

I was thinking about this as I was reading a book by Frédérick Gros, a French philosopher. The book is titled: A Philosophy of Walking. (Gros, 2011) The subject of chapter 5 of this book on walking was about Slowness. My mind immediately drew parallels between the walking experience that Gros is describing and my own reading habit of reading slowly.

Gros’ point is that the walking activity needs to be the focus of the walking activity. Indeed, there are other focuses to be undertaken as we walk: to get in shape, to race from point A to point B in minimal time. If indeed, walking is your focus, then speed should not be the focus, walking should be the focus. If one is walking while focusing on pace, then one is missing out on the greatest benefit of walking: to be absorbed in the experience of walking, to be in the flow of walking, to lose yourself in the act of walking, to gain the unconscious perspective that is walking.

Turning to my parallel viewpoint.  If indeed, reading is your focus, then reading quickly should not be the focus, reading should be the focus. If one is reading while focusing on pace, then one is missing out on the greatest benefit of reading: to be absorbed in the act of reading, to be in the flow of reading, to lose yourself in the act of reading, to gain the unconscious perspective that is reading.

Many of the things that Gros said about walking applies to my idea of reading.

Slow is not the opposite of fast. Slow is the opposite of haste. Making haste in reading, as in walking,  is to create an unnecessary and unwelcomed pressure within our psyche to hurry what is natural so that we end up in an unnatural state of haste.

Gros said that there must be an extreme regularity of paces, to apply a uniformity to walking; so it is with reading as well. In order to derive pleasure from reading, to gain perspectives of what is being read, to gain understanding, to allow the mind to contemplate the beauty, cadence, and structure of what is being read; there must be an extreme regularity of paces, to apply a uniformity to reading. This is an impossibility if the speed of reading is aligned with making haste, with consuming the words mechanistically, as opposed absorbing the meanings, digesting the ideas, contemplating the way the ideas are communicated, and appreciating the artistry of the writer.

Gros believes that there is an illusion associated with  speed, that walking speedily saves time. This illusion also exists with reading, reading quickly, and skimming haphazardously will save the reader time. What to do with all that saved time? Inevitably, it is to re-read what was missed in reading the first time while in a heated rush.

Haste and speed accelerate the passing of time; yet it also means that the reader is not fully using. The slowness of reading deepens the space that the reader inhabits in the minds of the writer, whereas reading in haste makes the space around the reading more shallow.

Walking slowly makes the natural landscape become more familiar for the walker. Reading slowly  makes the writer’s written landscape become more familiar for the reader. After all, that is the greatest of reading pleasures.

According to Gros, when the walker is fully engrossed in the act of walking, it isn’t the walker that moves, it is the landscape that moves around the walker. Same could be said about reading:  when the reader is fully engrossed in the act of reading, it isn’t the reader that moves through what is written, it is the written  that moves around the reader.

This short contemplation about reading  has led me to think about my reading habits. I realize that as I slow down the pace of my reading,  my familiarity with the author’s world grows. The more deliberate I become, the slower I read. There is much to be gained from reading slowly. I grew to be more appreciative of the writing itself. Of course, when it comes to reading a rip-roaring yarn, a great story; I will need to consciously discipline myself to avoid haste, to practice what I preach.

Works Cited

Gros, F. (2011). A Philosophy of Walking. London: Verso Books.

 

 

Tuesday, November 1, 2022

Volleyball Coaching Life-“Why Do I Coach?”

It is the end of the high school season for many volleyball coaches, while some others are still in the fight for state championships.

Regardless of the results of the season, everyone is breathing a sigh of relief after an intense few months, a time period that seems both extremely short and extremely long. While talking to some of my coaching friends who coach in the Fall, I got a sense that all is not well, worse than the usual end of the season lament.

Coaching is always stressful and stress affects people differently. The feedback is immediate, and as coaches, we are constantly challenged by the competition, the group dynamics inherent in dealing with teams, the level of player maturity, and the interactions with people outside the team, namely administrators, parents, and others. Those are the known factors that have been the nature of coaching since time immemorial.

It seems, however, that more than usual number of my friends are dealing with more challenges than usual this season, much more than any other previous seasons. One factor that comes immediate to mind is the 800-pound gorilla in the room: the pandemic effect on the players and adults. As we want to put that challenge behind us and believe that we have all survived the pandemic unscathed, the truth is that the impact of three years of isolation on coaches, the players, and their adults are yet undetermined. No doubt an army of bright doctoral students in a myriad of subjects will study the daylights out of this period in our history and will enlighten us about the effect of forced isolation on our mental health many years from now. It is unfortunate  that these future academics can’t tell us what the hallmarks of these effects on human are immediately, because we need the information to help us navigate our present; indeed, we need the information just to survive.

Another concomitant factor has a much longer time scale: the slow devolution of our collective mental health while living and dealing with modernity. Many people in the mental health field have told me that the collective mental state of our society is not so robust; that the known negative signs of mental state had risen inexorably, well before the onset of the pandemic. The merging the effects of the long and short-term mental stresses is a perfect storm, which manifests itself in many new ways. The problem that we see in this instant appears to be  ambiguous and amorphous as we are not cognizant of the telltale signs because we don’t know what those telltale signs are a priori. More insidiously, synergistic effects of the long term and short-term stresses may be magnifying the stresses exponentially, without us realizing its potency.

I believe that we need to revisit our personal coaching philosophies and answer the question: “Why Do I Coach?” at the end of every season. It helps us to mentally align our own motivations in context of our realities. This practice will either reinforce our resolve, to give us a reason to continue what we are doing; or give us a reason to call it a day. A look back at our past, our foundational philosophy, helps us to gain a perspective on why we feel the way we feel at the moment and broaden our focus from the daily grind of coaching. “Why Do We Coach?” is a good starting question to ask.  

“I got into coaching for the money”, said no one ever. Most of us started out as volunteers, serving our apprenticeship while learning the vast body of knowledge that is coaching volleyball. A vast expanse of knowledge that encompasses the technical, tactical, intellectual, pedagogical, and psychological aspects of the seemingly disparate, infinite, and complicated range of human endeavors. What keeps us in the coaching cult is, by implication, also very complicated.

We can roughly divide the reasons or rewards for continuing to coach into two broad categories: the extrinsic and the intrinsic. We are all seeking some kind of reward in all that we do. This is not to say that we are all slobbering dogs in a surreal video taking place Pavlov’s laboratory. On the other hand, we are all very needy for incentives to motivate us.

The extrinsic reward for coaching is mostly about recognition. Being recognized for excellence in our coaching, in our administration of the team, our knowledge of the sport of volleyball, our secret knowledge of how to succeed.

The intrinsic reward for coaching is mostly about satisfaction. Being satisfied with reaching the goals established prior to the season. Satisfaction with our own personal progress on our journey toward mastering the art of coaching.  Satisfaction with knowing that our coaching made the difference for our players, whether it is for the individual, a group of players, or the entire team. Part of the intrinsic satisfaction comes from knowing that we are  contributing to the village which guided and educated an outstanding human being.

In many ways, extrinsic recognition is about how others think of us; their value systems and judgements all intermingling with the facts of the situation.  In the Stoic sense, the extrinsic recognition is completely out of our control as the recognition comes from others, their opinions, personal mythologies, and biases play significant roles in how that recognition is delivered, what form that recognition manifests itself, and whether the recognition is given at all.  

Intrinsic satisfaction comes from how we view ourselves. In the Stoic sense, the intrinsic satisfaction is completely within our control as the satisfaction derives from our own assessment, our reaction to our perception of the factual events. There are no external recognitions involved so the feelings that we feel are completely up to us.

As we are complex beings, the extrinsic recognition and intrinsic satisfaction are always mixed as we assess the results from coaching. We will, more often than not, mistake our personal need  for intrinsic satisfaction with our ego’s desire for extrinsic recognition. We will look for appreciation/recognition  from others as a validation of those things where intrinsic satisfaction should be plentiful reward. This thinking is what sometimes creates tension within our minds because we are all Pavlov’s dogs when it involves our egos. It matters to us that what we do matters to others. It matters that the recognition of others about what we do, as ephemeral as that recognition is, is expressed for all to take in and note.

Am I stating that we are all fools for public adulation? No.

I am saying that public adulation does not hurt our feelings.

Should that hunger for public recognition be the main driver of our efforts? Should that recognition be the main motivation for what we do? Is it the reason “Why We Coach?” I don’t know. I can’t speak for others.

I do know that I don’t flinch or run away from recognition, and I must be vigilant in observing my reaction to the recognition, and do emotional triage on my reactions to what happens so that I can separate those recognitions that is out of my control with the satisfaction that I derive from my reactions that are within my control.

My hope is my friends can have the time and peace, critical thinking skills, and mental acuity in these difficult times to sort through their realities from their myths, their long term state of personal joy from their short term moment in hell, and the validity of their long term personal philosophies from their transient unhappy reaction to an unpleasant reality.

In short, I wish for them. Wisdom.